I have goals. 

A full list of them {which I will share later}. But, right now my laser focus is on my one thing for 2014.


Reckless obedience. 

My ultimate life goal at this stage is freedom, but I think I have been looking for it in the wrong places. Trying to create some ideal life by curating experiences and plans that should get me there. In learning to release that control I’ve also learned that to get to what my heart truly desires, I have to yield to the One who so carefully and lovingly placed those desires in me. 

Because He knows the plans He has for me.

Because everything works together for my good as one who loves the Lord.

Because there are good works, prepared in advance specifically for me to do.

Obedience is hard. And for me, obedience itself is not enough. I want to be reckless in my obedience. I want to obey without thinking or caring about the consequences of my obedience.

Because if any negative thing comes into my life as a result of my obedience to God, I know He will cure it 1,000 times over. 

My modus operandi for the past noneofyourbusinesshowoldIam years has been to obey when in my mind it made logical sense. That was my test; God isn’t going to ask me to do something that doesn’t make sense, right? Absolutely wrong. Usually it is those things that make no worldly sense, seem like they came from the sky, and produce an initial reaction of “I’m not doing that!” that require blind faith, total trust, and reckless obedience.

I want to cultivate my heart as a servant, opening myself to the freedom of walking in the shadows of the Great Architect. I don’t have to have the answers. I don’t have to figure it out. I don’t have to plan or know every detail. 

There is freedom in surrender.

Obedience is my gateway. It is my pathway to anything else I desire in this life. Because He gave me those desires, then I know He will lead me down the only path that will fulfill them 100%.

I just have to listen. 

And trust. 

And act.