A year later…finally.
It has been a year since I graduated from law school. In this moment, today, I can with some sense of certainty say that I am on the road to returning to that person I once knew. Sure, she’s different – it’s been 4 years – so personal growth is inevitable. But, the bitterness and impatience brought on by the beast that is graduate school seems to have kindly exited my life. And it feels good.
I’m remembering the things I used to do that made me enjoy life. And I’m doing them.
I’m remembering the way it felt to be at peace.
I’m remembering the compassion I used to have in my heart for people I don’t even know.
I’m remembering what it’s like to watch a bird soar carelessly above the trees.
{Please don’t get sentimental – this is not a poem}.
I spent some time this weekend just lying in the sun – letting it’s warmth embrace me like a freshly laundered towel when you remove it from the dryer. I love the sun. There’s something in it that reminds me of God’s wonder. I try to spend time just being aware of God in the little things around me. And I finally feel like I’ve returned to a point where I notice.
I’m not worried about exams; I’m not worried about grades; not worried about the bar exam. I feel like I’m finally getting back to that place where all that mattered was the little things. I don’t feel like I’ve reached an end to any journey – I don’t think there’s really ever an end. But, I am at a place of peace – which I once heard described as a place of contentment with the hope of growth & change. I’m content.
Being mindful. Living in gratitude.
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