Ok, so I haven’t been updating. In fact I’ve been running from it. Writing it down seems to make it real. I have no job, no direction, and no idea how I’m going to survive another 30 days with the amount of dollars that are not in my bank account. Since the bar exam, I have finally been able to clear my mind…read a book that has nothing to do with law or learning and just sit. And I have learned that just sitting is driving me totally insane. Besides the fact the I felt totally violated in the worse possible way by the bar exam, I now have time to think about it over and over and over again. It was weird not to have that Sallie Mae security blanket come mid-August.
But, I was thrilled not to be buying books, reading a syllabus, or organizing myself. I enjoyed the 2 weeks or so of having not much of anything to do. But……………..I’m pretty much over it now. I’m so frustrated with trying to find a job – I would have been better never going to law school and just working for the last 4 years. Because I am actually worse off than I was when I graduated from college. Alas, I have faith that everything will fall into place soon. It’s difficult to be forward-looking when you have a limited amount of $$, no cash flow, and no immediate prospect of any income. But, I know that everything will soon work out and I will be screaming for a vacation. So I’ll try to enjoy it while it lasts.
Locked in my apartment. Because I’m broke.
Recent Comments